Saturday, September 20, 2008

Innocence


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i've been listening to this song over and over again...my current ringtone for my hp...

i've decided to leave everything behind...to leave the heartless relationship i've been stucked in for more than a year...a year is not a long period but yet, it feels like forever...

i've been calling him sayang but never from the heart...i felt sick at my stomach, almost felt like throwing up every tym i did it...i tried to tell this to my frens but they never thought i was serious about the breaking-up decision...they thought i'm crazy when i said i was boring with my bf...they asked me to stay...but less they know about the truth...

what was i waited for to really realise the decision? well i guess i just need an excuse...an excuse just to support the decision...funny isn't it? i guess i've delayed it long enuff until i found him...i really should thank him for this...i'm glad i found him finally...

it doesn't matter whether i really be with him or not at the end of the day...becoz i will never thell him about this...about what i feel...i know i'm not gonna be the girl he always looks for...perhaps i'm on the list...but i know he will never pick me...

it really doesn't matter at all...like i said earlier, i just need an excuse...i want to leave the things that i did n try to be a good girl...i wanna be a better person...i wanna take my life seriously instead of just thinking how to have fun all day all nite...i don't wanna be a player anymore...i don't wanna be heart-breaker anymore...i wanna leave all that behind...

i guess i'm tired of the heartless relationship because i miss to be in luv...i really wanna be in luv again...to actually call my partner sayang becoz that's what i feel towards him...i wanna hold his hand so that he can feel my luv...i wanna look him in the eye so that he can see my luv...i wanna kiss him so that he will never forget my luv.......

i really miss it......



will i ever feel the luv again?






~this innocence is brilliant...i hope that it will stay...this moment is perfect...please don't go away...i need you now...and i'll hold onto it...don't you let pass you by...~

14 comments:

cahaya said...

wish u all da best my dearie fren! may u find what u're looking for and may god bless u always.....

~ xoxo ~

whitelilies island said...

tq dilla.. (^_^)

cahaya said...

hurrmmm.....ada bole x aku nk numpang coretan aku tuk someone special kt sini? hehehe....saje nk nyibuk kt sini. maklumla nk wat blog sendiri malas...haha

~ xoxo ~

whitelilies island said...

letak je la dilaa..
tls je ape ko nak tls..
ehehehe....

cahaya said...

kuikuikui...tq ada

To whom it may concern :-
I luv u...
> bcoz of ur "naughty" character
> da way u look at me
> da way u smile at me
> da way u touch me
> da way u kiss me
> da way u talk to me
> da way U ARE

Thank you for giving me a chance to be a part of ur life and made me happy even for a while.

Mayb GOD send you for a reason and a season, not for a lifetime...but YOU will always be in my HEART FOREVER! Hope we can be best frens.

Thanx 4 all da memories & our times together...wish u happy alwayz no matter with whom and no matter where are u...

I pray that someday I will find someone who really love and appreciate me the way I am.

~ xoxo ~

stannero said...

huhuh kenapa ako tetiba tangkap shahdu masuk blog nie ..

cahaya said...

kalu hg syahdu en. stan, aku lg la syahdu...huhu. but nevermind...yg berlalu biarla berlalu, jadikan sbg pengalaman. nikmatila hari ini sebaik-baiknya kerana mungkin kita tidak sempat menikmati hari esok.

~ xoxo ~

whitelilies island said...

Thank u for let me know u...
Thank u for making me feel so innocence...
Thank u for reminding me how to miss someone...
Thank u for making me realise that i still do hv a heart...
Thank u for this beautiful feelings...
Thank u......

uetoAya said...

klu x suke n klu terpaksa berpura2 cos nak jg at, lebih baik ko terus trg..at least die x terluka sgt..jgn paksa diri sendiri buat ape yg kite x suke!!!!

*jelly sender* said...

cahaya,
tkpe igt tak aku penah ckp rasenye.better u go for sumone who really care n love you more than you love him ok.love is for all.peace!

stan,
aah la.
syahdu.
ni dh jd sesi luahan perasaan ni kan.

ada,
ehem..ehem..u go girl!!sila berterus terang dgn si dia.jgn takut untuk dirijek.mane nk tahu entah2 si dia pun ade hati dengan kamu.yeah!!

*ai dh jd mcm dokter love pulak.haha.*

whitelilies island said...

uh uhh..sgt terharu membaca komen dr jelly-sender itu..isk isk...
time kaceh yee..cyg bgt sama kamu :-*

when i hv enuff courage, i'll tell him one day (^_^)

cahaya said...

aah jelly sender dh mcm dr love...hehe...huhuhu.....ya sy igt and i will try my best!

yup ada dun be afraid tuk luahkan perasaan ko walaupun direject nnt. blum cube blum tau kn. tp ko mesti berani and kuat cam aku dulu....hehe

ganbate kudasai!!!

~ xoxo ~

*jelly sender* said...

hihihi

cahaya,
gagal sekali tak bermakna akan gagal selamnya kan.byk lg insan2 di luar sana yg perlukan kasih syg kamu. :)

whitelilies,
semoga berjaya!

whitelilies island said...

baekk!! marilah kite sama2 berusaha ke arah kebahagiaan!!
q(^_^)P