i'm a jerk T_T

i've been such a jerk... i'm not a gud fren, i know... i'm selfish especially when i'm under stressed or in a bad-mood+feeling-down state of emotion... i can be a very annoying person when i'm in such emotion...

hate it but can't help it...

i've ignored some frens... i refused to contact some frens... i turned down some invitations... i avoided some events...

gosh...

i need a space... i need time to get back to "me"... currently, i just can manage to hang around with ppl who i see everyday... i need time to gain energy to maintain my social network... to get back to my frens... i want "me" back badly...


~affa, sorry for turning down ur invitations... i promise i'll get to you some day...

~dur, i luv u n i miss u n i really really wanna c ur alif... T_T

~angah, i'm sorry to break my promise to take the door gift from ur wedding at ur house...

~udin, i'm really sorry n feel bad about ur lost... i wish u would tell me earlier... i want to be there by ur side to calm u down... i really hope u'll be fine... be strong k...

~azie, i hope u're doing ok with the baby growing inside u... take care of urself k...

~alang, pls don't hate me for not chatting with u as often as usual... frankly, i miss u badly... (i haven't even read ur blog for ages now ok!! T_T)

makan-makan di restoran sambal hijau

date: 22.7.09
venue: restoran sambal hijau, sg penchala


aktiviti makan-makan kali ni disertai oleh kak obie n dilla... lunch time, lari ke sg penchala... melalui penchala link, dari bangsar ke restoran ni adelah sgt dekat ye... about 15-20 min kut... jln pun tak jam... so kalo perut lapar tp nak gak gi mkn jauh2, bley la ke cni... tak sempat pun perut tu nak berdarah dah smpi dah... hehehe...

tema mknan adelah mknan kpg... pilihan mknan byk tp x sempat laa nak tgkp gmbr mknan sume... so tgkp gmbr mknan yg diambil je...

~my food of choice: sotong, sambal tempoyak, kuah msk pedas dan sayur kangkong~

~kak obie's: sotong, kerabu mangga (lagi satu tak pasti plak pe dia)~

~dilla's: udang dan tempe goreng dgn ikan bilis~

mknan cni sdp dan murah... jd sgt berbaloi utk mkn di cni... sedap dan kenyang dan puas hati... anda akan pulang dgn perut yg kekenyangan dan senyuman mekar terukir di bibir... huahuahua...

time lunch tmpt ni agak pack so pandai2 la carik tmpt duduk... tak psl2 dok semeja ngan pakcik2 yg nasik-kat-dpn-tp-mata-tgk-tmpt-lain-nsb-baik-tak-suap-nasik-ke-hidung... hahahaha..... -_-"

~suasana di restoran~

"kamu" dan marahku

intro:
maybe btol kut... org ckp, kalau dah jatuh chenta kita akan jd puitis (ayat lain utk jiwang ^_^)...
sbb tu for the last few entries asek bermadah puisi je... hahaha... melayan perasaan utk berjiwang... hmmm... lama dah tak rs begini...


sbnrnye nak tls psl a few ppl yg lately get on my nerves... i admit aku cepat marah orgnya... i will easily be pissed-off for things which are non-logical... tp marah aku cepat redanya... ppl who knows me will usually let me cool down first b4 they talk to me again...

cuma yg klaka nya bile there are some ppl who wants to know more about me i.e who am i dating with? why am i being soo lovey-dovey lately?... and the ppl are not even close to me!! see? tak logik bukan? knape mahu tahu? aku pun tak tau knape mereka mahu tahu... mungkin mereka mempunyai sifat ingin tahu yg tinggi terhadap org2 di sekeliling mereka... hmmm, mungkin... tp slps tahu, apa yg mereka akan buat? aku tak tahu...

tp the point here is, mereka bukan kawan rapat aku!! bley nmpk tak ketidaklogikan di situ? harap phm... sbb tu aku hangen... sbb aku sndri pun blm crite pd kwn2 rapatku ttg "kamu" itu... apetah lg pd mereka2 yg tdk rapat itu...

aku tak mahu reveal siapa "kamu"... biarlah smpi masa yg seswai sume pun akan tahu... jd buat ms skrg tak perlu tanya siapa "kamu"...



~hati ini hanya mahu kamu... kamu si penerima hati biru... kamu si penerima gula2 berlagu... ya, kamu......

kamu

aku mahu berbicara rindu dgn mu
aku mahu menyulam cinta dgn mu
aku mahu hanyut di lautan kasih mu
aku mahu sembunyi di dalam kepompong sayang mu
aku mahu kamu
aku masih mahu kamu.......



~one day spent with you enuff to make me smile for the whole week!

aku mahu

bahagia itu hanya utk seketika bgku
aku tak puas
aku mahu lagi dan lagi dan lagi
selamanya aku tetap mahu
aku mahu kamu.........

nak kitteeeennn

aku nak anak kucing ini!!

atau yg ini!!!

tp sure my mom won't approve.. huwaaaa T_T

i'm dying to live in my own house.. like, DYING!!!


~pix are Hamis Jalikha's

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