i'm a jerk T_T

i've been such a jerk... i'm not a gud fren, i know... i'm selfish especially when i'm under stressed or in a bad-mood+feeling-down state of emotion... i can be a very annoying person when i'm in such emotion...

hate it but can't help it...

i've ignored some frens... i refused to contact some frens... i turned down some invitations... i avoided some events...

gosh...

i need a space... i need time to get back to "me"... currently, i just can manage to hang around with ppl who i see everyday... i need time to gain energy to maintain my social network... to get back to my frens... i want "me" back badly...


~affa, sorry for turning down ur invitations... i promise i'll get to you some day...

~dur, i luv u n i miss u n i really really wanna c ur alif... T_T

~angah, i'm sorry to break my promise to take the door gift from ur wedding at ur house...

~udin, i'm really sorry n feel bad about ur lost... i wish u would tell me earlier... i want to be there by ur side to calm u down... i really hope u'll be fine... be strong k...

~azie, i hope u're doing ok with the baby growing inside u... take care of urself k...

~alang, pls don't hate me for not chatting with u as often as usual... frankly, i miss u badly... (i haven't even read ur blog for ages now ok!! T_T)