alang, this is for you

alang...
truly saying, sumhow i'm glad u choose not to continue ur study n come back home for good.. coz i really miss u damnly.. but to think back that u have declined an offer from an outstanding uni, it has taken me aback.. rs cam sgt syg.. yet u said u wanna go there one day n finish the unfinished bsns, so i guess i can take a relief.. a big one... '_-

alang...
i'm counting down the days.. i really can't wait to see u.. i wanna hug u, talk to u, laugh with u, hangout with u.. i wanna call u when i wanna talk to u.. we've planned to JJCM together during lunch remember? i'm looking forward to it... ^_^

alang...
i hope u'll be ready to once again enter the working field.. i hope u can find smthg that u always want to have.. things that u always want to experience.. things that u always want to achieve.. and i hope u'll be doing great.. i know u can do it.. u always doubt urself.. always thot the grass is greener across the river.. quit it already.. ur life is great the way it is.. and it can only be greater if u want it to.. only u can do it.. no one else can...

alang...
i wish u all the best.. u're a great woman.. i always know u gonna be someone great.. i believe in u.. that's why u have to belive in urself too.. great things only happen to great ppl.. so u better be prepared for anythg incoming.. stay true to urself, stand on what u think is right.. only then things will go ur way...

alang...
luv u always...


-adeq-

I AM R.E.A.L

i was thinking of making this blog as private... coz i think this blog is too open... hahhaa... WYE...

actually i don't mind my blog being read by ppl that i don't know... i luv writing n i luv my writings being read... i wish to write smthg that can inspire other ppl... i wish ppl can see the world the way i see... i wish ppl can understand my life is full of flaws, but the flaws what have made my life beautiful... n i luv it the way it is...

i'm an honest person... i appreciate honesty... i'm not hypocrite... i'm outspoken... so everythg that i write in my blog is real... smthg that come from my mind n heart, flows to my fingers so i type all the words here... i'll write watever i want, whether you like it or not... whether it's about you or not... take it or leave it...

i never wish to be flawless... coz flawless is fake... ppl who put all the effort to make other ppl think that he/she is a good-flawless person, is fake... coz no one is that perfect... everyone has flaws... no one is perfect... that's why fake ppl always make me sick to death...

so i decided to keep my blog this way... if my words are too harsh and have offended anyone, i apologise... take wat u think is good so that it will improve u better... leave watever u think is bad for u...

lastly my dears, happy reading! <3

i miss my bf T_T

bf msk workshop pg td... semlm tiba2 dia jatuh saket ms kat federal, dkt ngan amcorp mall... gear tak leh msk... aku dah bygkan rm5k melayang2 ganti gear box yg rosak... seb baik abg pomen tu ckp clutch yg dah haus... jdnya tkr satu set termasuk yg lain2... so kos nya kurang la dr harga kalo nk ganti gear box tuh... affordable... tp poket ku bakal kesakitan dehhh... T_T

so smlm n td bf kena tow... barulah aku dpt menyaksikan betapa leceh kalo bumper dpn sgt lowered (hah, tau sebut je eja tatau)... dan aku baru tau bumper fiber lg sng patah so better guna bumper p.u (tu yg brader tu ckp laa kan)... ok, aku berazam pasni nk stadi psl kete btol2 sbm modified supaya leh wat pilihan ngan lbey tepat n affordable n reasonable n worthy...

dan aku dah mula suka pd pomen abg zaid dr workshop Double Zack... workshop nih adek aku yg rekomen... dlu ms stadi penah folo mmbr anta kete ke workshop ni gak... dia kata pomen situ best n bley dipercayai... so ok kut...

sbnrnya sbm ni kalo nk servis ke repair ke sume wat kat ipoh... encik abah sgt suka anta kat satu workshop nih... peberet... uncle tu pn baik n dah menganggap bf spt anak sndri... ceehhh..... drama plak... jdnya bila dah sangkut kat cni sah2 la kena repair kat cni gak kan... takkan nk tow p blk ipoh kan... jdnya, utk klinik kete di luar ipoh, bley la melawat klinik abg zaid nih... mmg bgs... servis pn bes... semoga abg zaid menyayangi bf spt adk sndri...

agak2 abg zaid tu dah kawen ke blm eh? kalo aku ngorat dia, dia nk tak? huahuahuahuahua~~~


~i miss bf... i can't help it but i hate it when he falls sick, coz i can feel the pain too... i hate it when he's not in front of my eyes, coz i keep thinking of him....... bf, i wish u well n come back home safely k... luv u always <3<3<3

Ramadhan.. welkam welkam~~

sy nk buat pengakuan ripley's believe it or not di sini:

sy berjaya mengerjakan solat sunat terawikh pd mlm ini!!

huahuahua... poyoosssss... tu pn sbnrnye slps dipaksa oleh puan mak ye... hohohhoooho..........

ok, frankly speaking, sy bkn la sorg yg rjn semayang... 5 waktu yg wajib pn kantoi ok... so bila nk terawikh ni cam malu sndri... sbbnya yg wajib-5 tu pn lobang2 tinggai2, ni kan plak nk wat yg sunat... heuheuheuheu..... -_-"

ok tape, selagi dipaksa oleh puan mak, sy tak kesah je nak wat... yg terpaksa pn akan menjadi iklas ye... sbb bile dah msk masjid, ati jd sejukk... sy tak tipu... cuba la try... hehe.....

dan satu lg pengakuan jujur, sy blm bersedia pn nk berpose esok ok... sgt laaaaaaaa tak bersedia... thn ni mmg thn yg ntah ape2 smpi nk pose pn xde feel nih... zenzen arimasu (heh alang, btol ke nih... lupa sudaa)... yg ade dlm pale otak sy skrg ni adelah prsaan tak sabar utk berbuka bersama family... uuuuuhhhhhh yesyesyes~~~

esok nk blk ipoh jdnya insyaAllah 1st day berbuka utk bln pose thn ni adelah di kpg halaman yg tercinta dan yg teramat dirindui... sgt winduuuu~~~

azam bln pose thn ni adelah nk berbuka ari2 kat umah... seboley2 nya nk gak mkn kat umah... rintangan terhebat di cni adalah keadaan traffic di federal hiway... sama ada akan mengizinkan sy slmt smpi di umah n mkn ngan family ataupun berbuka ngan bf di tgh2 traffic jam... jdnya kalo nk tau, terpaksa wat eksperimen on the next monday... kalo x berjaya, akan guna alternatif lain iaitu NPE... huahauhua... smgt tak?? doakan kejayaan sy n bf ye... aja aja fighting!!!

to all my frens n readers, selamat mengerjakan ibadah puasa... semoga bertabah ketika berpuasa nnt ye! (ni ucapan utk sy juga... hehehe -_-")... kpd yg x pose or yg x mo pose, selamat menyambut Ramadhan... dgn ucapan, jgn sebok goda2 org lain yg tgh berpose ye... hikhikhik......


~signing off with luv <3

~:-|

"When it's good, then it's good, it's so good 'til it goes bad"
sober, pink.

igt nk joging ptg td.. skali bos pggl msk meeting.. meleret smpi nk dkt kol 6.. tgk luar ari dah makin gelap.. demmit...

sabtu ni dah nk puasa tp aku tak ready lg nak pose.. demmit...

aku dah 2 kali try download vid clip Sober - Pink tp tak berjaya.. xde gmbr yg kuar melainkan lagu je.. demmit...

pose means aku kena pk bajet utk duit raya stat dis month.. igt nk guna duit wat tukar tayar.. demmit...

dah lama tak sakit, skali sakit lmbt sgt nk sehat nye.. bln ni mmg bln saket.. saket bdn, saket ati, saket poket.. demmit...

time kaseh kwn2!!

i'm glad i have frens who support me... thank you God for this blessings...


i'm currently not in a good state...
my health state is not yet to be pink since last week...
my emotional state is still recovering from the AAK-WTR-KDPTBGM thing...

ya, pd ms ni la kwn2 adalah sgt penting... they know me better so for them, the AAK-WTR-KDPTBGM thing is sooo unacceptable... seb baik... aku dah sgt down sbnrnya coz i really thot it was all my fault... but yeah, they know me better... when i think back, my frens are true... it was a one-sided judgement... soo it is not fair to me... totally unforgiven...

and, yayyy i got back my self-confidence... despite of the eye-bagged eyes which i carried throughout the day today (that include while eating lunch at Burger King in Masjid Jamek!! sggh tak menawan... T_T), but inside i'm recovering... now i'm confident enuff to face it, get thru' it all the way...

i'm not sure yet the end of it... all i know is i got REAL FRENS (attention; pls read the bold word out loud!) to support me all the way... only they know me the best... so only them who will advise me better... only them who can analyse and give great opinions about this... only them who can make my eyes open wider... see what lies beyond...

thank you all for the cares... thank you all for the concerns... thank you all for the great supports... thank you all for the great frenships...

i love you all.
i love you all until my last breathe.




~ sekali den suko, mmg selamonyo den suko... '_-

great things... i miss them

friendship is a relation between HANDS & EYES... when HANDS get hurt, EYES cry... when EYES cry, HANDS wipe the tears...

i miss my skool days... owh, only when i was skool-boarding in SR... btw year 1999 and 2000...
things were less complicated... i have less thing to think... all i know was just have great time with my great frens there...

yup, i found great frens there... i got great friendships from the skool... the frenships last even until today, and i hope for many years to come...

i miss them all... i admit i got less time meeting and hanging out with them now... but we always keep in touch at least virtually on the net... or eventhough rarely, in our hearts, we know we are kewl... when we meet, we gonna cause havoc with our laughters and stories and jokes...

i also found the meaning of love... yup, i fell in love for the first time there... and it was sweet... the love was pure and true... the kind of love which i know i will never find again... i treasure the memories until my last breathe...

i miss gud'ol days... full of great things, great memories...




~ain, u inspired me to write this. tq. ^_^

kamu yang indah

kamu sungguh indah.
segala-gala tentang kamu amat indah.
aku mahu terus bersama keindahan itu selamanya.

aku rindukan kamu.. amat rindu....

take care my dear

he said i'm jealous...

no i'm not.
i just don't want him to get hurt. i care about him.
yes, i'm hurt when he said so.
ok, fine.
i let you go. you take care k.

current mood

rsnya spt ingin melompat dari satu bunga ke bunga yg lain... menikmati keindahan bunga dan menyelami wangiannya... hmmm~~~

owh aku lupa aku bkn kumbang...
tp siyes aku terasa spt ingin menjadi spt kumbang yg terbang melompat2 di antara bebunga di taman... uuuuuuhhhhh~~~



~siyesly, this is a dangerous mood... ^_-

monolog hati aku

rimas bila berhadapan dgn situasi di mana apa jua yg diperlakukan seolah2 diperhati oleh sekumpulan manusia...

apa, igt aku tikus putih yg sdg dlm eksperimen?

kelakar bila ada yg menghakimi tanpa usul periksa dan dgn selamba membuat kesimpulan sendiri...

kau tahu tak dgn berbuat begitu kau nmpk sgt bodoh?

lemas bila ada yg cuba sibuk masuk ke dlm hidup aku tanpa menyedari siapa dia dlm hidup aku...

kau takde hak ok?!

penat bila terpaksa berhadapan dgn manusia yg berpura2, hipokrit, palsu...

tlg lah jd diri kau yg sbnr. aku kenal siapa kau laa!!

sedih bila kwn sendiri dibohongi, diambil kesempatan ke atasnya demi kepentingan ego sndri...

kau perlu ingat hukum KARMA. jgn pernah lupa itu!

meluat bila bersama dgn org yg merasakan diri sndri bgs...

org yg hebat tak pernah mengaku mereka hebat kau tau?!

menyampah dgn org yg terlalu bergaya diva, merasakan diri sendiri indah...

kecantikan itu hanyalah bersifat sementara. ayat cliche yg kau selalu dgr tp kau slalu lupa. fitrah manusia barangkali...

bosan dgn penipuan yg kau berikan. sama ada yg bersifat alasan atau yg sengaja kau reka atau sekadar mahu menutup cerita sbnr.

kau tahu tak, penipuan itu semua akan memakan diri kau satu hari nanti. kau akan rs malu tak terhingga seumur hidup kau!!

jodoh dan pertemuan

jodoh dan pertemuan di tgn Tuhan...

frankly speaking, i just recently understand the meaning behind it... before, i never really get it; why must jodoh and pertemuan be related to each other?

the benefits of having a serious talk with peers. ^_-

he explained to me on jodoh first... he said everyone has a jodoh with someone... but perhaps the jodoh is still not yet to be discovered... means no meeting yet... that's how the pertemuan get into, u c...

our jodoh is just around us... we might be working at the same building or company... we might be swimming at the same pool... we might be jogging at the same park... we might be dining at the same fave restaurant... we might be shopping at the same groceries shop... but since the pertemuan is still not yet to be as fated, we will not meet the jodoh...

when the time comes, we will meet them... and then miracles happen...

why i said miracles? because it is amazing how someone can know right away that he/she is the one... just met and go out dating for a couple of weeks and then get married... compared to previous long-term relationships, this one is simpler and more straight-forward...

that needs miracles... because it does not suit any logical thinking... hehehe ^_^

so frens out there, never give up on love... no matter how terrible your love life is, never give up... someone out there is made for you... you just have to find them... and eventually you will meet them to experience the miracles... <3<3<3




~are you afraid of love? i'm not.
are you afraid of taking the risk? i'm not.
that was why i went for him.
regret? i never regret even a bit.
if you're afraid of getting hurt, forget about being in love!

jalan-jalan makan buah

venue: merapoh, kuala lipis, pahang
date: 1 & 2 aug 09


ajer invited me to her officemate, yazer's dusun (bpk dia punya sbnrnya..hahah) in the saturday morning on my surprise... aje nya gile ajak nk g jln jauh pd hari yg sama utk bertolak... dia mmg nak kena ketok... but once i got there, i was glad to accept the invitation... sgt best... mkn buah especially durian smpi muakk... hahahhaah....

~ajer eating sandwich while driving.. she drove all the way go-and-back.. about 4-5 hour drive from KL.. look what UEM has made her.. hahahaa~

~rambutan kuning ni kat blkg umah yazer je.. see how lekang the rambutan is?~

~manggis yg manis.. putih bersih isinya.. nyumnyumnyum~

~look at the isi.. very rich, full of gas.. the taste of the real durian.. hahah.. envious? ^_-~

~sekitar rumah yazer~

~kesedar inn in gua musang.. the place we stayed for a night~

~ajer n her nephew and nieces.. ade sorg lg tgh breakfast~

~after breakfast, mandi2 di lata serigala~

~ni la yazer.. hehe~

~rs cam kat dunia lain.. cam dlm lord of the ring.. ade kaitan ke? hahaha~

~snorkeling dlm sg tgk ikan~

~maman kesejukan smpi tak leh nak senyum.. hehe~

~merentas semak di dusun~

~tgk laa betapa meriahnya buah dokong ituuu~

~ajer sgt excited (aku pn tak pasti dia excited nk petik buah ke excited berlakon dpn kamera..hahha)~

~yayy.. byknya buah dokong!!~

~buah cempedak pun meriah gak!!~

~antara buah durian yg baru jatuh.. tangkai dia basah lg tau ms nih ^_^~

~kambing pun suka makan durian!!~

~gigih memetik buah rambutan (gigh laa sgt.. hahahah)~

~perbincangan adik-beradik ttg bagaimana nk take over dusun nih~

~ada bakat tak? huahuahua ^_^~

~yela2, ko pun berbakat gakk.. hahaha~

~hasil kutipan yg lumayan ^_^~

thank you very much to yazer for your hospitality... makcik msk sgt sdp... pakcik pun sgt sporting... len kali nak dtg lg bley? hehheheh... ^_^



~a getaway which i really need... thanks once again ajer ^_^