YES, I AM ANGRY

i don't get it, how people can act innocent while they know (and everyone else knows!) they are guilty?

because they are shameless? fearless? faceless? heartless?

i do sometimes hide my wrong doings from other people just because i don't feel like sharing them.. i prefer to keep it to myself unless i think i need to spill it out.. then i will tell people whom i trust the most.. people who will just listen without judging.. people who knows me enough to accept me despite what i had done..

but to know some people who would simply lie for their own benefit until they willing to ignore their integrity, that is SELFISH.. to back-stabbed others just for self-satisfaction, that is DEVIL.. to make up stories just to get others sympathies and people will back you up, that is INHUMAN.. to pretend befriend with others meanwhile you bad-mouth them at the back, that is BITCH..

yeah, what am i complaining about? the world is just full of this kind of people.. i remember one of the tutor of a training i attended said, there is no right or wrong in one's doing.. because what they did was a decision made based on their personal experience.. thus, avoid judging people.. understand them instead..

BUUUUTTTTT...............THE ONE WHO IS HURT RIGHT NOW IS A DEAR FRIEND OF MINE AND I LOVE HER DEARLY AND I HATE TO WATCH HER GO ON HER LIFE IN PAIN EVEN THOUGH I KEEP TELLING HER TO BE PATIENT BUUUUUUTTTTTTTT IT ALSO DRIVES ME INSANELY MAAAADDDD BECAUSE SHE IS HURT DEEPLY AND IN PAAAAAAAIIIINNNNN!!!!!!!!

and all i can do is pray.

huh demmit.

i hope there is no other people i know will experience things like hers.. i hope that person will just stop doing what he/she doing and wake up and remorse and go far far away from my dear friend and leave her happily ever after.. what my friend has gone through is awful enough and he/she just put the salt in the wound, and perhaps enjoying every of her suffer.. and that is definitely a devil..

only God can damn such people.. so i hope He do.