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bravo to KTM Berhad.. coach for women.. mmg canggih aahh.. they should do this like years ago dowh.. but better late than never aite.. hehehh..hopefully sykt tren yg lain pn akan folo KTM gak.. ^____^

lately i've been juggling a lot with work and personal life.. i think it's getting harder and harder day by day.. until i always feel like i'd rather be at home doing nothing just to rest my body and brain from doing anything.. but deep in my heart i still wanna do this and that..

yeah i'm still struggling.. still trying.. but i'm positive about it.. i'm a survivor anyway ;-)

jgn smpi tercicir sudaa

i was supposed to be at tsk perdana right now but thanks to my fren who has kidnapped me until nearly dawn last nite.. last2 terbangun kol 10 sdgkan kena ada kat sana as promised with dila to be there at 10am.. damn.. cian dila.. haihh.. sory dil, nnt aku blnje ko tgk ironman ek.. -_-"

about the fren, dia actually wat luahan perasaan about her gf.. apparently his gf was still keep in touch with her ex who turned out to be his fren.. he didn't know about this at the first place.. he said he doesn't mind her gf to meet anyone and that includes the ex.. he tried to be open but his gf has taken the chance to spark back wat she had lost..

hmm.. when talking about seeing back your ex, i never believe we actually can remain frens.. ada yg boleh, maybe.. but those ppl are minority.. my fren and her gf (which now is his ex) has been together for a year.. for me one year is a long period enuff to strengthen our feelings towards our partners.. but i guess not in this situation since she has fallen back to her previous love..

that's why i never believe in remain frens with our exes.. the risk on falling in love again is huge and that can jeopardized our current relationships.. it's actually hard for us to move on.. i've been there and done that.. and it didn't work.. the sparks is still actually there.. well unless it has completely died then i guess it's ok enuff to meet the ex.. itu pun just catching up and say hi and no more than that.. no need to lepak2 g minum apatah lg exchanging the latest no or email or watsoever.. in fact byk kes yg aku dgr even dah kawen n beranak pinak pn bley tergoyah perasaan bile jupe ex blk.. dan menyebabkan byk marriages ended up in divorce..

i suggest move on and never look back.. wats past is past..

but then again, kalo dah jodoh x ke mana kan? hehh.. perhaps we should remind ourselves, perlu sentiasa beringat.. takut jd mcm yg dikejar tak dpt, yg dikendong berciciran.. *wink2* hv a nice sunday! ;-P

my job & dandruff is like a parallel equation

i just realised my job now is defined kinda like this:

"you will be paid for your ideas.. so don't ever stop thinking"

damn.. dandruff will be scattered all over my scalp in a blink of an eye.. -_-"

hmm...

i hate to live on other's expectation but that's what my parents hope for me.. they wish for me to have a monotonous life but reality is i dont have it.. eh no, rephrase.. i'm destined not to have it.. my life is a real roller coaster.. full of ups n downs.. got no significant black n white coz got sooo many shades between those two..

haihh.. they dont get it.. my life becomes like that coz i'm a risk taker.. i'm hard headed especially when i know what i'm doing is the right thing..

ok i can't define "right" coz i might be wrong aite? but then again, like i said earlier, i'm a risk taker..

maybe they dont wanna be worried about me.. it's gonna be less a child for them to worry about.. plus my sister nurul, would be two so that's left them only two more to be worried about.. maybe la kan..

hmm...

but i'm tired.. sometimes i do feel like out of air to breathe.. hmm...

katopisakuadeorggile

bley tak ade sorg dak opis aku bwk mulot kata aku asek cuti memanjang asek ilang je keje.. babi tol laa.. dia igt aku xde kat opis means aku x kje ke? dia xtau penat pening letih aku ke sana sini pk psl ank2  buah aku serata mesia.. adehh.. siot aah dak tu..

tu la perangai dak yg baru kje tp berlagak cam ko tau sume benda.. org yg sndri bajet org penting.. org yg sume nak ngaku pandai tp bodo haramjadah satu menda pn xtau / xreti..

fcuk.

reviewing

since my company usually measures the performance quarterly, so i guess i wanna do the same too.. hahaa..

hmm.. so far my performance in work is OooK.. ahahhaa.. i asked my boss she said "bagus".. so ok la kan.. hehh.. not bad for 2 months newie aite.. why 2 months? well of cos have to minus 1 month due to the induction program.. duhh.. :-P

it just that i'm getting busier day by day.. my boss putting more responsibilities on me phase by phase.. at the moment i'm serabut.. i still not organise my mind yet.. and also the tasks.. sume cam kucar-kacir tunggang-langgang.. lately keep doing my job like usik sini sket usik sana sket.. last2 aku yg pening.. haihh..

seb baik sbm ni dah fully utilised my free tym.. bahahaaha...

my personal life is just lame.. same story, nothing new.. owh except for the new man that had officially entered and patiently staying in my whitelilies island.. hehh.. i luv him.. enuff said.. i'm glad he's patient enuff to be with me.. now i guess it's the tym for me to pay him back.. to be patient as he's currently being extremely bz which i really hate.. aku bz tape, dia takleh.. bahahhaahah... ok jgn ngengada sgt yek..

currently i'm bz looking for any chances for me to proof my talent.. i need feedback from the experts.. i want my art to be reviewed by them.. only that way i can improve myself rite.. i will share the chances here so that you also can join (if you're interested la kan ^_____^)..

so far tu je kut which i can write.. perhaps there is more but for now i can't reveal anythg yet.. too early to mention it.. *winkwink*