the funny feeling is a funny thing~

it's funny when at the moment, you finally think you are ready to be in a relationship, but at another minute, you hesitate yourself...again......

i have this feeling...i know it's real...but i still hesitate it...i guess i'm just afraid...afraid of what might happen next...afraid of smthg that not even happen yet...duh...what a loser :-(

perhaps i don't even get the hint from him...that just adding up the hesitation in me...hmmmm....talking about hint, it can be in many forms rite...maybe i wrongly interprete it, or maybe i missed it...but then, he should come straight to me and say it to my face rite...huh...i'm pretty sure this is his fault...he's the one who should be blamed on this hesitation...ahahaahahahaa (pointing at other ppl = me feel relief...ahaks!)

nvm 'bout that...all i can say is, i feel glad everytime i see him...even a little glimpse, it's enuff to make me feel at ease...lessen the missing feeling inside me...ahahahaa....now i remember how to miss someone...i thought i've forgot it...nyehnyehnyeh....

i told my fren about this...she said what's the ending of this feeling is not important...what matters the most is, it proves that i still have a heart...i'm not as heartless as what i used to be, erk, think......ahaks! *wink2*



~blm juga kah kau menyedarinya...aku lah yg pantas utk kau cintai...di bwh langit biru aku bersumpah...diriku tanpamu apa ertinya cinta...cinta ini sudah menelan waktuku...siang mlm hanya utk fikirkan engkau...sejuta kali aku berani bersumpah...diriku tanpamu apa ertinya cinta...~

love.peace.no war

tuesday
26.8.08


I was break-fasting when they announced the anwar’s success for winning the election in permatang pauh…I couldn’t hear the announcement since I was sitting far away from the tv so I sms my dad…he replied:

“sape lagi, anwar le”

It was an easy prediction…the increment of his supporters has tripled since he was released, compared to when he was first put behind bars…he got charisma and he can play politics like playing a monopoly game…ppl tend to stick to him and listen to what he said and eventually believe him…he is a true politician for sure…

I got critics from some frens and even from my sister…they are worried of what anwar is capable of…based on his history I mean…yes, it’s true…his idealism is secular…he still loves the west…and he is still the golden child of the west…

But if not having him for the next PM, who else? I can’t see anyone else who is worth the seat...not worth actually but capable of taking the responsibility…

Yes, we are worried for the “ketuanan melayu” is going to be jeopardized under anwar…but think about it, where is most of the malays rite now…what exactly they are doing rite now? If we really think about it, non-malays are the majority ppl who really and truly run the country…they are the one who bring up the name of Malaysia to be seen by the world…and now what they demand is to be treated equally…and it is understandable why they demand that…

“takkan melayu hilang di dunia”

The quote was once believed to be said by laksamana hang tuah...yes I believe melayu takkan hilang…tp yg hilang maruah…

What we really need is a true leader who can preserves what we have…it’s not just about expanding or increasing the power and influence of the country, but also preserves the treasure that we already have…look what happen to batu puteh…how we simply lost it to s’pore…how silly we were to refer the case to the international court…we already aware of s’pore being the darling of the west…but we blindly being optimist believing miracles can happen…and now, they are widening the maritime boundary…it is not impossible if they are rite now observing our defense system…they just wait for the rite time to make a move…

It’s just only one example how we are slowly losing our dignity…a proof on how silly we are in handling international affair…what we really need is someone who can really deny all the opportunity which can got back on us badly…it’s important for our next generation…or else, we will have nothing…

break-fasting yg sengal

berbuka pose di tmpt kdai dpn bomba...ntah ape ntah namanyee...sebok main tgkp2 gmbr...

xlama lps order...en.stan n en.miaz pun smpi...tp en.miaz muka cam kena pakse dtg...sure en.stan heret dia smpi ke kedai...

ish2..muke......muncung cam leh gantung hanger...ehehehhee....

en.stan sebok control macho (macho kee??? ehehehe...)

bukti kedengkian aida...sgt jeles tgk kami bertiga bergambar dgn penuh anggun bergaya...ehehehe....

sekian....

tqvm.

kak pija's cheese cake

This is kak pija's cheese cake:

my comment:

"sbm ni sy x suke cheese cake...tp lps mkn cheese cake buatan kak pija nih...sy trs suke!"

(komen ditulis secara paksaan oleh kak pija..hrp maklum)

mun's comment:

"ye la beb...sdp laa...tp maybe sbb i tgh lapa, sbb tu rs cam sdp jee...eheheehe"

sekian..wassalam...

(^_^)

sejuk+lapa+beku+blur+dahaga... :-(

adelah dugaan yg sgt hebat utk berpuase pd hari ini...sejuk ya amat cuaca arini...alangkah indah kalau di saat ini berada di depan tv bermalas-malasan di rumah...huhuhuhu....

dah la sjk...penyebab utama utk lapar dgn lbey pantas dan hebat...dah la keje nih asek ngadap depan pc...jd nye pembakaran lemak tidak berlaku lgsg utk memanaskan bdn...terpk nak wat heat transfer secara physical contact....aaaarrrrggghhh...apekah apekaahhh???!!! kurang sdh pahala pose...adoih adooiihhhh...

tgh berkeadaan begini, tetiba ade la plak sorg mamat sengal nih pi anta msg ym kat aku...content msg nye adelah spt berikut:

"cuba bayangkan.. ko pejam2.. ada mee bandung berasap2.. ciken wing 3 ketul.. satay 10 cucuk.. air teh o ais yg gelas dia berasap2... berwap sejuk"

betapa sengal nye dia...stuju x korg? aku tau korg sure stuju ngan aku nyee...ehehehe :-D

akibat drpd msg tu...aku dah asek terbayang2 chicken wing madu brother sek7 tu...adelah sgt sdp...dah lama x mkn chicken wing dia...

uh uuhh...tisu2!! air liur termeleh plak!!!


~ahaks ;-P

ex-men :-D

kecoh kecoh...kak atul terserempak ngan ex nye...mmg kecoh...hehehehe...

hmm...i can imagine how would she feel...it sux isn't it...to bump into ur ex again...the heart will be beating in an awkward beat...the world suddenly like run out of oxygen...hahaha...that's actually what i would feel i think *raise a brow*

if the break-up was in peace, it won't be that terrible if the two meet up again...they still can say hi and smile to each other...as for me...hmmm....i don't think i can do that...i never want to see him again...but then...the world is too small for us to hide from anyone...we'll run into each other one day eventually...hate to think about it but it's the fact that i guess everyone needs to swallow in...

i guess...why i don't wanna meet him again coz i hate to remember the pain i'd gone through...the reason whom i have become...that's y i refuse to still be in touch with him, even just as frens...what for anyway...i got better frens already...even if i wanna add another, he won't be in the list *grin*...

nvm...what past is past already...the experience taught me lots of lessons...lessons that i'll nvr forget...


~here i am once again...i'm torn into pieces...can't deny can't pretend...just thought you were the one...broken up deep inside...you won't get to see tears i cry...behind these hazel eyes...~

Avril Lavigne

since Avril is coming here, I haven't stop listening to her songs since couple of days ago...wanna go to the concert but no budget laa...by the way, i don't really like being in a crowd *crossing fingers* ;-P

neway, found this website...it's cool cos it has Avril's songs player...it only plays her new songs for 1 minute only though...just for promotion i guess *raise a brow*...but it works what?? cos i feel like buying her new album rite away!!!.......naahhh...better i download them...cheaper what...ssshhhhh *wink2*

http://www.avrillavigne.com/home

Semalam yg Sengal

semalam adelah ari yg amat x bersemangat utk bekerja...dah pkl 12 tghri baru nk stat wat kes...ape kess?? ehehehe...tu pn dok sebok main2 tgkp gmbr ngan aida aziz n sharifah adillah..smlm adelah sgt sejuk...dah rs cam salji trn kat dlm opis jee...ehehehe...tu pn bls ehsan thenu bg pnjm sweater dia...tu pn sejuk lg...hmmmm....

position msg2 sama jee...sbb mls nk pndh2 tmpt...pndh lokasi kamera je jd laaa...eheheheheh....



then we went out dinner at kedai tepi-jln-dpn-bomba (lupe la nama dia..ehehehe)...pastu smbg blk keje smpi kol 10...then we started a gamble journey to downtown Cheras...1st tym pegi nih...msg2 excited je...ehehehe...




but we should get a credit for it u knoe...we did not get lost at all!! amazing2...adekah kerana pemandunye seorg pemandu yg cekap lg berhemah? ehehehehe *wink2* tp yg klaka nye...kitorg got lost lps pusing2 x jupe parking...ape sengal nye ntah laa...menjatuhkan reputasi gue ajaa...ehehehe...




anyway, lps pth blk n jupe parking...kitorg pn pusing2 la kat c2...parkingnye bapak jauh nk menapak ke downtown tuh..huh...seb baik tkr pakai sandal jee... :-D

hasil belian adelah spt berikut:



ada danish: kasut+eye liner
aida aziz: bunga nenek kebayan+eye liner+baju
mun aziz: jam tangan
sharifah adillah: eye liner



walaupun ade permintaan dr dak2 tu utk aku membuat show di situ tp xde la plak aku gi melalak kat situ...ade lak yg dak2 tu blk trs tak tgu aku...ahahahahaha...lps pusing2 sampai puas ati...kitorg pn blk laaa...

p anta aida aziz kat umah dia...sbm tu mnm kat mamak area umah dia...lps aida aziz dah naik umah, kami pn blah...tdo la aku wat 1st tym nye di umah sharifah adillah n mun aziz...(komen psl blk? x yah laaa...takut lak aku memikirkan akibatnyee...ehehehehe)...smpi umah pn dah 3pg lbey...tdo umah derang nih bkn dlm perancangan sbnrnye...jd terpaksa pnjm baju tdo sharifah adillah...esoknye g keje, pnjm baju R.V. mun aziz...walopun x bergaya, tp janji aku berbaju ke opis pn ckp laa...ehehehehe....

sgt mengantuk ok di opis...rs cam mabuk jeee...tu blm g cucuk langit lg tu...uhuhuhu....

p/s: sepjg ms adelah ketawa memanjang...aku pn x phm derang nih... :-D

Nur Batrisya

ahahaha...akhirnya akhirnyaaa...org yg dinanti telah tibaa...org yg membesar dpn mata selama almost 9 bln tlh menjelmakan dirinya.....yahahaha....


name: Nur Batrisya
birth date: 16 Aug 2008
weight: 3.2kg








ohohoho...amatla sehat baby sorg nih...
baru smlm ckp ngan baby srh dia cpt kluar...tp lps tu ckp ngan dia srh kluar 20hb...nnt birth date dia cantek sket...upenye dia nk ikut ckp gue yg mula2...maka kuar la dia pd hr ni...ehehehe...adelah sama bday ngan bpknye ok...ank bpk nih...


to kak liza...many congrats...cayang bgt sama kamu... :-*

can i take back what i've said? :-(

15th Aug 2008
11.34pm

I just realized that I should take back what I’ve said about some people...I know I should coz I’ve said it without knowing them well…I just simply said it…based on my first impression…I thought I was damn right…I was pretty damn sure I was right…so I was confidently blurted out what I’ve concluded…

After knowing them over the time, I realized they are more than what they might appear…they are still young so they got potential…I can see they can go further if want to…

I don’t really do this…I don’t simply make conclusion without observation or analysis…because I know the feelings…to be judged before knowing them first…to be judged based on just first impression…

I know the power of first impression…it’s very important especially if we want to leave a very good image to other people…but sometimes first impression is not always right…some people are fake…that’s why I don’t rely on just the first impression…but this time, I broke my own principles…I should be ashamed of myself…

And now here I am…feeling guilty towards those people…I really feel like I want to take back those words I have said…

~aku wanita punya hati nurani yg x dpt dibohongi...pabila cinta telah membutakan mata...dan membuat tuli telinga...apakah salah jika aku menyinta...apakah salah jika engkau ternyata...pilihan hati...belahan jiwaku ini...~

the quest of niniey's wedding present

uhuhu...pnatnyee berjln2 mencari adiah kawen niniey..

target of the quest: SONY DVD PLAYER

accompanied by: en. stan nero

mula2..g midvalley..tgk2 kat kdai SONY tu..decide lunch dlu..sbb en. stan dah sgt lapa..oleh krna en. stan mengidam carl's jr, maka pegi la mkn kat c2..adelah 2 weekend berturut2 mkn carl's jr ok..ni kalo pakcik carl tau mau dia berdoa bia ade 1000 lg org cam aku di setiap branch dia all over the world..ehehehehe...

lps mkn, pegi la blk kdai tu..xde la plak model yg kitorg nak..ade yg plg murah tp function x best..ade yg mhl tp luar budget..jdnye..bncg punye bncg..kitorg decide pegi lowyatt..

pegi la naik tren..adelah sgt ramai org..dan cuaca sgt pns..i really hate crowds..to be under the sun in the middle of a crowd is such a headache-starter..tp aku still maintain macho..wahahahaha..

lowyatt pn ramai gle org..jln2 smpi atas skali tp x jupe kdai SONY..huh..tensen amat..seigt aku mmg ade kdai electrical appliances kat c2 tp la ni dah x dak..derang dah tkr kut..aku pn xtau since bila..nmpk sgt aku dah lama x gi c2..hmmmm...

2-2 dah pnt..muka msg2 dah x comeyy dahh..wat last tour kat plaza tuh..carik punya carik ade la 1 kdai nih jual electrical appliances..pastu tgk ade DVD player brand lain gak..lps compare features n prices..en. stan pn ckp better bli SAMSUNG DVD player..sbb function lg byk..n price is ok..aku selaku ajk adiah adelah menurut aje kate bos ye..ok di mata n pikirannye, ok je la bg aku..yahahahaha...

dah bli, kami pn blk..blk pn org ramai nk mati..kaki aku pn dah skt..ms blk pn dok berdiri dlm tren..tu laaa...dah tau nk g jln2 carik adiah sebok gak nk pakai heels..sengal sengal....

g naik opis..sbb wrapper n reben kat opis..walopun x bape nk kreatip sgt tgn nih..tp hasilnye adelah memuaskan..leh la diterima, ade laa rupe adiah nyeeee...eheheheheheh...

~sebelum & selepas~

~comeeyyy kaaaannnn....nyehnyehnyeh (x malu puji diri sndri ;-P)

Aktiviti Mingguan..sgt beshh...ehehe..

sat 2.8.08:

• kol 9 bgn..trs mandi..mkn bekfas..smbg bace reader's digest..pastu tetido..smpi kol 11am..
  bsh kain..pastu melangut (astro x psg lg..hmmm)
• msg Dila ajk g jln..decided to go to Pavilion..pastu siap2..pastu gerak..
• pegi Pavilion ngan Dila..smpi sane dah ptg..tp x igt kol bape..adelah 1st tym jejak ke sane ok..ehehehe..
• mkn Carl's Jr..lapa neh, x lunch lg..adelah 1st tym mkn burger kat c2..order Super Star burger..mkn smpi pnt..x abes pn..pastu tapau..aku yg kuat mkn ni pn smpi tapau burger tu..hmmm..ape la yg aku mkn sbnrnye ye..ehehhee...

• jln2 window shopping..msk kdai mhl2, tgk harga pastu kuar..bkn x mampu, tp murah sgt..cam xde class plak..ehehehe ;-P
• singgah elianto bli eye-liner itam n nail polish kaler coklat..
• singgah PDI concept store..bli earrings..nnt nk pakai ms kenduri nini..ehehehe...
• singgah FOREVER 21 bli baju..
• rehat jap..smbl smbg mkn burger yg ditapau td..french fries x usik pn..x mampu nk abes kan..even bwk blk umah pn x mkn..last2 buang je..rugi2..hmmm...
• tgk marching band sempena KL marching band competition..sgt besh..mamat yg manage event tu pn encem..eheheheh...
• blk umh..paint nails..tdo..
  

Sun 3.8.08:

• Bgn lmbt..sdr2 dah kol 11am..ahahaha..
• wat brunch..english style..2 hotdog, scramble egg, 2 slices of toasted bread n choco ice..kenyang gle..
• tgk cite korea ngan Nurul "3 dad and 1 mom"..klaka gle..tp part sdey tu aku nanges2 cam org mati ank..uhuhuhu..jiwe ku lembut ok..muahahahaha...
• siap2 g umah kak chid2..smpi umh dia dah kol 6..kak chid2 tgh tdo..rupe cam org baru lps beranak..uhuhuhu..amat huduh..tp xpe, sbb dia kak chid2 jdnye comeyy..ehehehe..
  tgk tv jap..cite Jgn Lupa Lirik..
• pastu run jap g kdai bli kicap kps udang n lighter..goda2 pakcik kdai tu sket, so dpt la diskaun yg x seberapa..ehehehe..
• stat bakar arang nk jd bara..
• kol 8 smthg, tetamu dah mula dtg..dlm 8.30pm, Niniey's Bachelor Party pn bermula..
  main solek2, bkr BBQ, mkn2, tgkp2 gmbr, mkn2 lg dan lg dan lg..ehehhehee..
• kemuncak party: soklan thp membunuh utk Niniey jwb..nyehnyehnyeh..sgt klaka..slp xde video recorder untuk di record..tp Niniey mmg sporting, jwb sume soklan..caya laaahhh *thumbs up*
• smbg mkn2 blk..bakar baby potato..nyumnyum..sdpnyeee...

http://adasyut.multiply.com/photos/album/7/Ninieys_Bachelor_Party

• lps clearkan everything, blk umah kak atul..tdo kat umah dia ngan ain..
• baring2 dpn tv dgn ain..tgk cite Cuck & Larry..kak atul n en. arip dah slmt beradu kat dlm blk..
• lps abes movie tu..borak2 ngan ain smpi pg..ntah kol bape baru tdo..terlelap kepenatan....