aku yg berharap

arini cuti.. saje amek off.. sbnrnye affa bajet nk blk 28hb skali dia cancel.. aku pn mls nk cancelkan cuti so cuti je laa..

tp seb baik pn cuti arini.. leh wat quest mencarik bhn bacaan yg terbaru.. plus to that, yg menjadikan aku sgt eager utk beli novel adelah info dr ain yg kata ada satu kdai buku kat amcorp mall.. buku2 kat situ jual murah2.. nama kdai tu bookstore xcess.. atau nama melayu kedai buku xcess..

i googled the store n i found out some ppl have blogged the bookstore and they also satisfied with their purchases.. click here and here..

td aku pegi mmg buku2 kat c2 murah2 cam cilanat.. aku tgk sume harga buku2 kat c2 baik hard cover ke soft cover ke mmg tersgt laa murah smpi aku rs cam nak nari2 lari2 sekeliling kedai tuh.. dah la cantik kemas cuma xbape nk bau buku sgt.. mebi aku mengharapkan tmpt tu cam library tp realitinya tak kan..

last2 aku sebat smpi 4 bijik aku beli.. ajenye gile pn ade aku rs.. tp berbaloi2.. total price is RM72.60.. pasni aku xyah dah nk g beli buku lg.. tgu la lps raya kut bru beli lg (dgn harapan ms tu sume buku2 tu dah abes dibaca).. owh buku novel bersiri twilight juga dijual dgn harga yg murah.. aku x usha pn satu2 siri tu bape hengget tp mmg seigt aku plg mhl pn rm24.90 je (ke mmg harga dia camtu kat mana2 pn sbnrnye??? i dont think so la kan)

blk je umah tetiba tekak terasa nk mkn ayam gulai lemak cili padi.. ntah pehal aku pn xtau.. kuarkan ayam dr petiais dgn harapan mak blk awl then leh pjk2 gedik2 manja2 srh dia mskkan.. skali dia lak blk lmbt.. x saba nye psl aku pn google recipe pastu main gasak je msk.. jadik wehh.. walopun aku rs cam krg asam tp mak aku kata sdp.. yg amazing nye bapak aku pn kata sdp.. siap tmbh 2kali dowh.. huiyooo~~~

nape aku kagum? sbb bpk aku mmg xmo mkn mskan yg ank2 nye msk ye.. dia kalo bley nk mskan mak aku je.. kalo g umah org lain pn nk mak aku gak yg msk (tp dia x la wat camtu kan.. hehehh).. tp td dia kata sdp dowh.. siap mkn roti cicah kuah gulai tu lg.. huwaaaa~~

okeh jgn terlalu eksaited.. esk bakal mengharungi hari2 yg bz sbb kje tertangguh satu pn xwat ms wiken aritu n gak arini.. sgt poyoss ari jumaat lps nk smbg wat kje kat umah.. dgn harapan ada masa dan akn bersmgt utk jd pekerja cemerlang.. tp realitinya adalah aku mmg sgt pemls-bile-kat-umah-tau-nk-online-maingame-tgktv-xmo-wat-pape-dah..

nmpknya esk aku kna bernekad g opis awal.. dgn harapan aku bgn awal.. dan dgn harapan bile dah bgn jgn smbg tdo blk kunun bajet awl lg.. dan terpaksa gak la berkorban blk lmbt sepjg mgu nih.. dgn harapan kje siap on tym as ordered (read ordered.. aaarrrggghhh!!!)


~bilakah si dia mau msk meminang.. sy sdh gatal thp gaban nih  -_-"

hmm...

sometimes i think i've been too mean to some ppl.. especially to ppl who i hate..

i dont simply hate them.. i always have reason(s) to hate some ppl.. usually because of their actions which have hurt me inside out.. or ppl who are stupidly snobbish and disrespect other ppl around them..

i can forgive.. but it takes time.. and usually i will always remember eventho' they have been forgiven..

unfortunately it shows.. i cant hide the feelings.. i cant even pretend.. usually i will distant myself from them.. when we bump into each other, i will just keep quite.. perhaps i will just give them a smile to cover up the hatred.. or just say hi.. one thing that i can pretend is when i see them from afar and probably i will bump into them, i will pretend i dont notice them.. bahahhaa...

*shrug*

it's not nice isn't it? morality, it is not nice.. but i can't help it..

if there is a delete button in my life.. i will press it on those ppl.. or perhaps move them to the recycle bin and empty it..

but living in the real world would never be that easy anyway.. must be strong and pull myself together to face those ppl..

i'll get thru' it.. gambatte!!

nk bg ke?

if you meet some new ppl like in a training you're attending or from a program you joined, and suddenly they ask you "do you have a blog? i would like to read it if you do"...

would you give your blog adrs to them?

my answer would be i won't.. i won't even admit to having a blog either.. hahhaa...

well.. malu laa wehh.. sum1 you barely know suddenly read your blog and comment watsoever.. malu wehh.. hahaha..

malu ke? patutnya tak la kan.. blm tentu akn jupe dia lg pn kan.. haihh..

practically everyone now in the world would have a blog.. kalo isi biodata dlm buku skola cam dolu2 sure akn tmbh satu lg sila-isi-tmpt-kosong iaitu blog adrs.. so pe kes nk malu kan..

tp aku tetap x leh wehh.. malu sehh.. kalo sum1 yg aku x kenal happened to know my blog from kinda like blog-hopping activity, lain cite.. sbb dia terjupe sndri.. tp kalo nk aku yg bg mmg aku xkan bg la kut..

ntah la.

kalo korg, korg bg tak?

hmm... hate this... really hate this

so...

practically, i'm happy.

basically, i'm happy.

i'm pretty happy.

i'm quite happy.

i'm happily happy.

in the nutshell, i'm happy.

just one problem:

~bby, sorry for i can't stop missing you...

For what it's worth

For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. 

~the quote was written by benjamin button on a letter for her daughter.. it's one of my fave luv story.. i cried a tearful cry..

votevotevote!!!

i think i'm ready now to enter any photography competition.. i think now i'm more confident to try to at least participate.. it doesn't cost me anything anyway rite? just trying my luck.. to see how far will i go.. how far the photos will take me..

for a starter, i submitted one of my fave pic here..

join the group first and don't forget to vote for me k!

^______^

bingkisan buat udin

~nah udin.. ni utk ko.. siap aku letak sekali gmbr sate ikan yg aku jakun sgt tuh.. mmg kacis laa jln2 ngan ko.. ntah bile la leh jupe ko lg kan.. hehehh.. ko windu aku tak? baik ko ckp ye.. kalo tak siap ko!!!


gmbr the latest udin yg dirindui lg dikasihi.. huahuahua... lama dowh x jupe mmbr laki aku yg sorg nih.. aku x ramai kwn lelaki tp ni la kwn lelaki aku yg plg kacis*.. seorg yg penyabar melayan kerenah pmpuan sbb dia ni x byk ragam.. folo je.. aku nk ke mana2 dia folo je.. aku nk shopping mana2 dia bwk je.. mmg kacis..

windu dowh ms kita tgk mubi karok main boling makan2 jalan2.. bosan gakk xde ko kat cni.. ade org lain tp mana nak sama ngan ko kan? :-(

neway udin.. gudluck in being Sir M.. aku tau ko leh wat.. never regret anything that had happened in the past.. u surely got smthg out of it, smthg u might have learnt.. experience is the greatest treasure of all.. ur past is gonna be the pinpoint of smthg big in future.. u just have to be patient k..

perhaps one day, situations will change us all.. but remember one thing, there is no way for me to forget our friendship.. omae wa atashi no ii tomadachi deshou.. forever n ever...


*kacis adalah istilah sesuatu/seseorg yg bes xde pe yg xbes melainkan yg bes2 shj.. btol tak udin? :-D (udin adelah founder utk perkataan kacis.. harap maklum)

the reunion with the all-tym-fave gurls *luvluvluv*

date: 28.2.10
venue: restoren geng upin ipin @ shah alam

~da gurls~

~my drinks.. tp aku x igt lak yg ni namanya upin ke ipin.. the mixture of ribena (bottom) and orange juice (top).. mabelesssss~

~ok this is definitely not my plate.. kalo ade tempe kompem it's not mine.. sape punya ntah la~

only then i realised i didn't take any pix of my plate.. sgt musykil.. aku rs ade tp nape xde???? T__T

this is the first lepak activity with my frens after i got back from marang.. i was kinda blur actually.. just got back from rehab (????) n back to the real world is kinda confusing.. plus with the announcement to make, haaaaa lg la wa rs pale wa cam da x btol.. hahhaa... haihh.. mebi sbb ms tu prsaan still berkecamuk.. still kompius dgn prsaan sndri.. now no more ye.. i'm ok now n i'm happy hop-hop-and-away!!! :-D

but sorry i couldn't join smbg lepak kat umah lel.. aku sgt2 bru blk ms tu n brg2 kat bilik aku sgt laaaaa bersepah2.. siap dak2 ni nk dtg umah aku ckp jgn.. gile kurengg kan.. hehh  -_-" .. next tym k gurls.. nk dtg skrg pn bley.. blk dah kemas tiptop dah.. ngeehehehe..

tq gurls for postponing this event for me (eh yeke? korg tgu aku blk ke? prsn sndri nih.. wakakakaka).. nnt kite lepak lg yek.. lepak umah aku pn bley.. bley main msk2... :-D

abah's bday

date: 1.3.10
venue:

• 1st celebration (bday eve) - @ home
• 2nd celebration - restoran sate hj samuri @ kajang

happy bday abah! luv u always... <3

induction HSBB 03/10 program

date: 2 - 23 feb 2010
venue: TM training center, marang, terengganu

it is still somthg unbelievable for me to survive from the program.. without my car and my frens and internet.. for 3 weeks straight!! gosh.. sometimes i thought it was just a dream.. hahha..

the first week was the most terrible days.. got no one for me to share jokes with.. to talk more personal things with.. the meals were prepared by the caterer and i ate every single meals and no exercises.. except for some times of playing futsal and volleyball.. no jogs no swim.. and i gained weight and was depressed..

but then i found some great frens to chill around with especially my roomate, fara. we were destined to be together i guess since we both got no one close to share a room with.. she invited me to join her.. i'm glad she did.. we still are frens even after back to work.. ^___^

my groupmates were great either.. my group was the forth group named iTALK (every group must be named with the company's products).. we won the best group of the program and our female futsal team won the champion title for the futsal match btw groups.. and i was the futsal capten.. hahahaha... i was just a goalie.. my team played great games.. luv them all.. mmmuuaahh...

 

~this is my group in the class~

~my seat is the forth row from the front, beside has~

~the last row of my group, behind my row~

~in front of my row~

~the second row from the front~

~the front row~

~behind my group was group 8: VOIP~

~beside my group is group 3: IPTV.. fara was in this group~

~my group leader~

~this is the penyelia program.. basically she's the one who took care of all peserta program seramai 160 org~

~the futsal team, on the day of our first match~

~these are the girls whom i spent most of my time with ms kat sana.. gelak2 main volleyball borak2 smpi pg.. seb baik jupe derang kalo x aku leh sakit mental.. heh.. owh my rumet pun join skali cuma dia x main volleyball.. hehe~

during chinese new year holiday, i took the chance to go to pulau kapas for 2 days n 1 nite..

before that we had a visit to an exchange and taman tamadun islam.. then we proceed to pasar payang for some shopping.

we had to organise our dinner on 21st feb.. i offered myself to be the official photographer on the nite so i was excluded from any performance team and joined the crew team.. i was one of the backdrop team.. we came up with some fancy idea for the backdrop to match the theme: black & white.. at first ramai yg x yakin kitorg leh wat ms kitorg bentangkan idea ni kat ketua batch n ketua krew tp kitorg yakinkan gak yg benda ni adelah possible..

~this is the leader of the backdrop team~

~one of the backdrop team.. sepjg proses wat backdrop nih, dia slalu joking by saying "doing the impossible" :-D ~

~ni pun one of the backdrop team.. dia ni gak la asst. photographer for the dinner.. graduated from US~

~dia ni unofficial asst. photographer.. dia byk tgkp ms2 yg lain selain dr dinner n sepjg proses pembikinan backdrop~

~dan inilah hasilnya.......~

~close up.. amacam? *sambil agkt kening*~

 ~before i forgot, on the left is the crew leader and on the right is the floor support~

~food of the night: steamboat!! nyumnyumnyum~

~on the last day, kitorg ramai2 lepak kat restoran lempeng x jauh dr training center tu~

~aku order sotong sumbat.. org ganu pggl pe ntah aku x igt.. yg dlm plastik tu aku lupa nama dia tp kinda like mknan tradisi org ganu gak laa~

~the chef expertise: lempeng~

well.. considering the friends that i got from this program, i guess it was worth being locked up there after all.. heheh.. no worries, i'm a survivor!! :-D

got soooo many pix taken.. i've compiled it together.. check it out k! :-D

~futsal match~

~pembikinan backdrop~

~geng kompang~

~persembahan boria~

~persembahan dikir~

~persembahan koir~

~persembahan sketsa~

~sesi penyampaian hadiah~

~slps dinner~

~kenduri hamper~

~last nite at marang~

show some respect 'ere eh mate!

aku terigt ms kat induction program aritu, ramai groupmates aku lg muda dr aku.. aku srh derang pggl nama je takyah ber"kak-kak" nih.. they said they just wanna show some respect.. i just laugh it off and the issue never been brought up again..

for me, to gain respect is not by being older than everyone else.. tak semestinya ko tua then ko layak dihormati.. well maybe just hormat sbg elderly but blm tentu dlm aspek humanity, ko layak dihormati.. rite?

let say, this girl is a bitch.. always talk badly about other ppl.. never can keep a secret and luv to announce sum1's secret.. even if she's older than you, can you respect her?

it's just an example.. i don't refer it to anyone..

for me, ppl respect each other when we understand each other.. understand his/her personality.. we also respect other ppl according to their maturity level.. especially when some1 is more experienced than you.. because we know we can learn many things from them, as a guidance..

so...

there's nothing wrong with me taking advises from ppl who are younger than me rite?

penatnyeeeeee

arini sgt buhsan.. mls gile nk wat keje.. rs cam nk je tepon bos mntk wat keje dr umah je.. hmmm.....

serabut.

byk benda yg dipikirkan.

konflik dalaman pn still blm setel lg.. masih berperang.

aku takut.

takut pd sesuatu yg blm terjadi.

bimbang pd sesuatu yg mgkn terjadi atau mgkn takkan terjadi.

curiga pd sesuatu yg tak pasti kebenarannya.

keliru antara pilihan yg ada. keliru pd khabaran yg disampaikan.

berada di situasi yg rumit sgt memenatkan.

aku penat berfikir. berfikir bagai nak rak tp msh blm ketemu jwpn.

penat.

penat sgt.

i believe............

how do you know what is real and what is not real? can you differentiate it?

can you love someone unconditionally?

what if you fall in love with someone whom you thought you would never love? what if your relationship with your partner is unusual, not like other normal people, would you deny the love?

people will talk.. they will criticise and judgemental.. would you be brave enuff to face it?

love is beyond logic..

that's what i've been told.. that's what i want to believe..


i believe him.. i want to keep this relationship.. make it alive and lives forever..

i believe in this love.

nur aimi

 

kenalkan.. ini lah nur aimi bt maikel.. heh.. anak one of my best girl, azimah.. dah besar dah dia.. aku x nmpk dak ni iras sape.. xde rupe mak or bapak dia pn.. heh.. agak2 ade iras2 aku x? hakhakhak...

my happy ending? - part II

trying to take back my intention which i wrote in the prev entry..

instead of breaking up, i try to accept him.. open up my heart a little bit.. try to understand his ways of caring n loving.. try to give back what he gave.. so that i can create a two way relationship..

it's working..

i'm glad..

i guess it's worth to give it a try after all rite?

^______^