welcoming 2012

i am fully ready to welcome 2012!!!

sebenarnya azam tahun baru dah aku jalankan pun sempena maal hijrah baru2 ni.. kiranya ketidaksabaran aku untuk masuk ke tahun 2012 hanya kerana aku nak terus berusaha merencana apa yang telah dirancang.. semoga Allah izinkan segalanya berjalan dengan lancar...

in 2012, i am expecting more adventures to come.. more money to save.. more investment to make.. more reading materials to read.. more knowledge to seek, learn and understand.. i am also thinking of trying to do some new stuff.. there are a few listed already.. it's just that whether i am going to go for it or just leave it on the list.. that of course, depending on my determination and motivation.. muahahahhahaa...

alright.. i'm aaalllll set!!!

are you ready kids?

ay'ai capten!

(^________^)V

another random post

Setelah lebih sebulan menjadi pemandu haram di jalan raya malaysia, aku kini sah berstatus pemandu halal..hehehh..sengaja tunggu after birthday baru renew lesen..jadi officially sekarang lesen aku akan mati pada my birthday next year..

Masih dalam mood holiday walaupun esok dah start kerja sebenarnya..ikutkan hati rasa nak sambung je sampai next year tapi apakan daya..nak simpan cuti untuk carry forward next year..banyak event bakal dan telah disusun..budget planning pun dah established and running..jenuh la menahan nafsu shopping yang membuak2..uurrrggghh

I just got back from subang jaya to redeemed a voucher for gelato ice-cream..peerrggghh nikmat betul makan ice-cream vanila..it is my all-time favourite ice-cream flavour..bila makan, terasa tenang jiwa yang sedang bergelora..cewaahh..sama jugak kalau bau vanila, aku mesti akan rasa tenang..the sweet smell calms me down..how interesting..in contrary to bau lime or lemon..ia akan buat otak aku mengembang dan tiba2 terus rasa aktif, both mind and body..korang ada rasa macam tu tak?

My dad tak percaya aku tak reti naik bas..can you believe that?!! He thought i'm spoilt and no longer can do stuff yang susah2 macam naik bas for example..aiyaa..was it my fault to make him think like that about me? i remember telling him aku tak nak naik bas sebab leceh..i remember not wanting to join him to go to his small kebun to plant some trees and stuff..mungkin la kot kan..well, in fact i'd rather be a petani or peladang, living in a farm..dari dulu aku pasang impian nak ada sebuah ladang..actually bukan my dad je yang fikir i'm spoilt..some of friends pun sama fikir macam tu jugak about me..i guess i have unintentionally sent the wrong message about me to the world..hahahaha T____T

Actually i'm a person who will do anything once i am determined..termasuklah sesuatu yang diluar jangkaan orang2 di sekeliling o_O

the truth

kadang2 kebenaran yang cuba kita tunjukkan tak dapat diterima oleh orang lain.. sampai kita sendiri disalahfahami..

i never like to be in the situation where i have been misunderstood.. especially by someone i fond of..

and that what had happened to me couple of years back..

dan aku buat keputusan untuk menarik diri dan pergi.. apa guna bertahan.. hati yang sakit terpaksa disimpan and i have to wear my usual face di hadapannya setiap hari?

i guess not.. aku tak pandai hipokrit..

aku bertuah ada kawan2 yang terus setia dengan aku.. yang betul2 kenal siapa aku.. mereka inilah yang membantu memberi kekuatan dan semangat untuk aku pulled myself up and faced the situation bravely..

and recently i just found out, yang dia pun telah lihat sendiri kebenarannya.. in the funniest way i could think of.. the strangest way God showed the truth.. Allahuakbar..

sesungguhnya, mengadu nasib jerit perih luka lara kepadaNya adalah jalan yang terbaik.. kerana Dialah yang Maha Adil.. yang Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu..



~Allah sentiasa bersama dengan orang2 yang sabar.. kerana sabar itu separuh dari iman.

the words i wish to say to you

i wish i can make you see the way i see the world now..
i wish i can make you understand why i left..
that world guarantees everything fun but temporarily..
it is like the sea..
the deeper you go, the harder to get to the surface..

yes i miss you..
and i know you do too..
but i need to find something permanent..
something that can give me serenity..
only serenity can keep me sane..
only sanity can make me human.


~if there is a name for this relationship, i have named it long ago...

the man in red (mode rindu)

i thought i saw you in red..

i never see you in anything red before..

if it was really you..

i bet you look good.

dear leaders

don't spend your money on campaigns..

stop giving sweet promises which even you know you cannot keep..

enough saying bad things about them..

enough of the fightings..

if you really honest, i challenge you to be transparent.

aku saikik dowh (thank God at least bukan saiko hahahhaha)

aku mimpi aku pregnant about a month ago..

aku dah agak dah..

memang ada orang yang terdekat dengan aku yang akan pregnant..

baru je confirm this month..

dah 5 minggu..

gila saikik kan aku..

ekekeke.


p/s: congrats kak mala! the long waiting has finally arrived.. terkena badi Mrs Bella Cullen kot.. ahaks *wink2*