ingin hanyut selamanya

akhirnya aku berjaya menghanyutkan diri di dlm dunia fantasi berdasarkan novel yg dibaca.. setelah sekian lama menjejaki diri sndri, akhirnya aku tlh berjumpa jln pulang..

seronok.

best.

rs lega.

aku boleh kembali senyum ikhlas dr hati.

ade potensi menambah koleksi novel lg nih.

ingin hanyut dlm dunia fantasi begini.

selamanya.

^_^

hati-hati hati

aaahhh bosan..

hari bermalasan sedunia..

system pn tgh down..

bagus bagus...

permasalahan hati mmg tiada kesudahan barangkali bagi aku.. aku akui aku mudah jatuh cinta.. tapi mudah juga menjadi bosan.. bahaya kan.. tp itulah aku..

aku perlukan sesuatu yg boleh membuatkan aku terus teruja.. dlm apa jua pun.. kerja hidup frenship relationship.. mungkin buku dan kamera shj yg mampu buat aku terus tak bosan melayani kedua2nya.. owh good music too..

mgkn itu yg membuatkan aku selalu bertukar2 status.. hahahaha.. aku tak pernah menaruh harapan pd sesiapa.. cuma kdg2 aku terbawa2 dgn perasaan sndri.. yg kdg kala menampakkan aku spt org bodoh.. yg slalunya akan menyakitkan hati sndri.. tp hati aku cepat sembuh.. time heals the pain, eventually.. huhuhu...

lalu bila aku mendapat soalan berkaitan perkahwinan, aku sndri jadi takut.. mampukah aku setia menyayangi psgnku hingga ke mati? mgkn aku blm berjumpa dgn si dia yg benar2 mampu mengambil terus hatiku tanpa memulangkannya semula.. mgkn setelah hatiku dicuri begitu baru aku akan terus kekal bersamanya.. does it work that way? i dont know.. -_-"

sesungguhnya aku dah lama tak menyayangi insan yg bergelar lelaki kecuali family aku sndri.. cinta aku pd mereka seolah2 satu permainan.. sayang yg diungkap hanya di bibir.. hatiku sekeras batu.. dipukul ombak sekalipun begitu jua lah rupanya yg akan tinggal.. mgkn kepercayaanku terhadap insan yg bernama lelaki ini semakin cetek.. lalu hatiku mengeras sebegitu.. yeke? hmm....

permasalahan hati yg satu ni lah yg tak pernah aku ketemu jwpnnya.. sbb tu lah aku lebih selesa being single.. well, ok to be precise, single but not single.. bahahaha.. bley ke gitu? hmm.. i luv the freedom being unattached to anyone.. keputusanku dibuat tanpa perundingan dgn mana2 pihak, ataupun dipengaruhi oleh mana2 pihak, dan tidak mengakibatkan kecederaan mana2 pihak.. everything is on me and about me only.. haaaaa cane lah aku nak insaf get serious about relationship kalo aku mmg sgt enjoy hidup begini u tell me? sgt lapang freedom hidup bergaya.. yesss....

mgkn aku perlukan org yg tidak mengongkong aku.. yg menghormati kebebasan aku utk hidup spt yg aku mahu.. yg menerima aku berfikiran dan bersikap rasional kritis dan bebas bersuara.. dan juga mampu membuat aku terus teruja berada disampingnya..

bagaimana mahu membuat aku teruja? kenali aku dan kamu akan tahu. titik.

jom jumpa? - part II

perjumpaan yg menarik.. sedondon yg tak terancang.. so sweeetttt~~

rindu itu hadir kembali..
menyelimuti diri ini tanpa diminta..
menghantui diri ini tanpa diduga..
aku mahu menunggu.. sungguh aku sanggup tunggu..
namun kepastianmu belum ku dapati..
membuat aku bertanya sendiri..
keraguan yang takut akhirnya akan memakan diri ini....


~lately asek main post entry ade part2 lak eh.. hmm~~

jom jumpa?

calling calling~~

dgr suara dia... lagi.
setelah sekian lama...
tiba2 terbit rs rindu.. ketawa suara renungan senyuman berarak...
rindu sgt...

jom jumpa?

ok.

^_^

sayang.kasih.cinta.kamu.

aaahh.. menatap wajah lelaki ini mampu menggetarkan keutuhan imanku.. terasa ingin menyerahkan segala2 milikku utk nya..

 lihat saja susuk tubuhnya.. masa kan aku tidak gila?! ya aku gilakannya..

gerak gaya perwira.. meruntun jiwa.. mahu berlari2 ke dlm pelukannya..

seksis-meksis nyumnyumnyumm~~

sayang.kasih.cinta.kamu.

yesss <3<3<3

bluweekk... - part II

ooohhh tidaakk.. rancangan MC terancang telah gagal.. krn telah MC arini..

heh.. pdn muka aku.. skali dpt sakit btol2.. bahahahah -_-"

mari cerita tentang politik opis..

politik opis sama mcm politik negara.. it can never be clean no matter how much you try it.. tetiba terigt cite hindustan lakonan anil kapoor pe ntah tajuk dia tp cite dia sgt bes bley ulang byk2 kali..
slalunye politik opis dimainkan oleh org2 yg menginginkan kuasa dan pangkat serta recognition from the higher management..

org2 yg bijak bermain politik opis slalunye akan memainkan permainan ini secara licik.. very smooth, not too obvious yet very effective n professional..
org2 yg x bijak, of kos akan terkantoi dan akhirnya malu sndri..
org2 yg kejam, akan bermain secara kejam (duhh mmg la kan, dah namanya kejam).. they are usually heartless dan tak pernah mengambil peduli siapa mangsa mrk asalkan mision accomplished..
org2 begini lah yg patut ditembak mati..
atau mungkin perlu dicampakkan ke luar tgkp tgkt 29 ke bwh.. owh pastikan mayatnya jatuh btol2 di dpn pintu msk bangunan.. baru thrill!!! bahahahha!!!

tak slh sbnrnye mahu mengejar pangkat dan kuasa.. let's see this in a positive way.. it's more like a goal.. smthg that we put as a target, as a motivation for us to work hard and be a better staff..
but when we do it wrongly, sampai sanggup makan kwn sndri, sanggup memburukkan nama org lain, sanggup menjatuhkan org lain, sanggup mempergunakan dan menganiayai org lain, i think it's too damn much..
heartless dowh..
org lain pn nk carik mkn gak.. so jgn la tutup periuk nasik org lain kan.. kejam dowh..

things like this happen rite in front of our eyes.. yup, it happened in front of my eyes.. wat did i do? i did nothing.. i admit i was too scared to get involved.. i dont wanna jeapordised my job, my position, my name, my image blablabladamnbla.. i'm selfish.. yes i am.. i'm just trying to take care of myself.. that's it.. say watever you like.. i dont and i won't care..

how can i become that selfish? i used to fight for other ppl before.. yes i have some records of fights which all was due to defending other ppl.. in the end, wat did i get? no need to say here.. confidential.. all i can say is, i learnt from it.. i really keep it in my mind, almost like carved.. cos i know, if one day smthg happens to me.. i doubt if there is anyone will stand up and fight for me..

AAK. bluweekk...

bluweekk...

bosan.

system sgt slow.. merangkak2 status bar nk bg penuh.. berpeluh menunggu..

kat menara TM td ade jualan buku MPH.. staff TM dpt smpi 20% less!!
menarik kan? tp amazingly, satu buku pn aku tak beli.. tak tau nape tp lgsg tak berminat ngan buku2 yg ada.. mebi dlm pale dah set nk carik novel The Time Traveler's Wife smpi buku lain byk yg tempting tp tak cukup kuat utk menarik minat aku membeli.. hmm...

nk MC ari jumaat.. nk g workshop.. xtau bape pantas brader tu leh siapkan bf.. kalo pantas, leh lepak kat Popular.. atau MPH.. atau kedua2nya skali.. aku windu bau buku bercampur dgn bau aircond.. aku windu suasana sume org dok atas lantai baca (atau selak2?) buku.. sume org hanyut dlm dunia msg2.. winduuu.....

ye MC terancang.. AAK.. bluweekk...

hepy bday ain!!

i organized this surprise party for ain.. huhuhh...
plan nk wat kol 4pm.. siap book meeting room dah.. sekali runner (dilla) lmbt laa plak.. last2 kitorg wat dlm kol 5 lbey..
mntk tlg fakrul, selaku ain's TL utk bwk ain msk ke meeting room.. salute to him cos he really did a superbly good job!!

 

 

 

ain,
wish you a very happy 24th bday.. i wish for only the best things to happen in your life.. and for all the happiness in the world would be yours..
you've been a very great fren to me.. very supportive.. you have opened up my eyes to almost eveything i see now towards my life..
this frenship is one of the greatest thing that happens to me.. and i hope it will last for eternity..
luv u always..


~to all, tq for ur cooperation.. hehhehe

jln2 raya di hari minggu

jalan2 raya kali ni sgt pjg.. mengambil ms sehari suntuk starting from 1pm onwards until the next morning.. err, well... i guess the last event could not be considered as jln2 raya though.. hahhaha -_-"

thanks to ajer for being my partner of the day.. bahahaha~~

i got 2 open-house invitations on the same day, 17th oct 09.. since aku pn grk lmbt dr umah, so i declined the other invitation and just went to my gf's house.. eager sgt nk jupe dia sbb dah lama gile x jupe dia n x penah lg jupe 1st child dia, alif..

 

~alif yg comeyy~

the food was marvellous.. ns ayam, spaghetti n mee rebus utara.. superb!! no pix sbb sume dah slmt msk perut yg kelaparan.. huhuh..

then, g midv igt nk tgk Papadom.. skali line pjg gile so sure x sempat nk catch show kol 4.30pm.. show kol 6.40pm full.. so tgk laa cite lain; Whiteout.

 

 

 

~sambutan deepavali di midv~

igt pastu nk g beraya umah azimah sekali upenye dia pn nk g midv.. so kami jupe kat midv je laa.. azimah; mommy-on-the-go.. a pregger for 6 months now.. ^_^

 

~adakah azimah sgt berseri2 krn bakal menjadi seorg ibu? (owwhh.. sgt jeless)~

borak punye borak.. dgr cite azimah; pengalaman pertama menjadi pregger.. tgk dia dgn perasaan kagum sbb muka bahagia+berseri2.. dan dia makin putih since bekerja sbg vampire.. hahahhaha...

sdr x sdr dah pkl 12am.. lps anta ajer blk umah, gi jupe affa utk update stories..  walopun aku dah sgt mengantuk tp wajib jupe dia kalo x aku bakal dibelasah atau dibunuh atau kedua2nya skali.. bahahahah...

later on join lepak skali ngan nita, sul n mizi.. lama tol x jupe dak 3 ekor nih.. msg2 dgn rambut gaya baru.. sadly no pics.. sbb ms ni aku dah exhausted sgt dah x leh nk pk tgkp2 gmbr pe segala..

blk kol 4pg (kut).. trs tdo..

gile pnt.

hr ni lepak umah sepjg hari.. tgk twilight smpi berperasaan jiwang.. hadoo tgk twilight je pn dah jiwang.. bahahhaha~~

ok watever.

geram geram~~ - part II

ok i was writing the previous post with anger.. i was angry becos i was disappointed..

she's the person whom i know would take MC or EL every month with various countless excuses.. so now u tell me how should i trust her when she said she is really sick? is she really sick or she just made it up?

i hate lies.. becos it will delete my trust to the person.. and eventually it will vanquish my respect to him/her..

my anger is relevant.

enuff said.

can u feel me?

geram geram~~

aku plg pantang kalo ade org yg asek nk ponteng keje nih..
aku tak kesah kalo dia dtg lmbt ke.. slalu run ke.. jnji keje dia siap..
tp bile ada yg asek nak dok ponteng keje.. balik2 MC balik2 EL, aku pn jd bengang..
efek performance team dowh..
dah la team mmbr bape kerat je.. lg la terasa bebanannya..

dia ckp dia MC sakit mata..
igt aku tak tau ke mak dia dtg dr kpg so nk g jln2 ngan mak dia..
sialan.
ko plan la cuti ke pe ke.. dah la team aku mmg short one mmbr sbb AL.. tmbh lak lg sorg yg secara tetiba takde nih..
pening dowh..

tak reti bhs punye org.. aku yg pening pale..
siap aahh dia kalo dtg sok..
aku akan bg dia keje yg sgt byk sbg pembalasan dendam kat teammates dia yg terpaksa aku wat kerahan tenaga selama 2 hari nih..

owh lupa.. org yg slalu menipu balasannya tak tertanggung.. jd jgn la nak sdey2 kalo ko one day btol2 sakit smpi tak tertanggung..

wish you the worst.

hari isnin yg biru+gloomy wheather outside T_T

i hate today..
i think i didn't get enuff sleep last nite..
despite that, i still manage to wake up and arrived early to get the free parking..
workload never decrease..
the air is sumhow thinning in this office (where does the oxygen go?)..
life kinda start to rotate for the same routine... again.
it's tym to plan on smthg..
i need a space.. i need tym to be with me alone..
i need to get out before my brain got cramp and my face turn grey.

take me away~~

luv it!

my silence does not mean i forget you...

what's better than catching up ol' frens?
update stories, gossips.. those stuff lighten up my nite last nite..
sumhow, i was glad that place has closed temporarily.. at least i got an excuse to stay at home last nite..
another homey nite.. and it was nice.. luv it!


~lel, really miss talking to you.. yes, read talking.. chatting doesn't count so come back home quick!!
~sorry udin for i can't reveal this blog to you.. not fair eh.. tp aku segan dowh.. bahahahahha!!!

thank you girl.. u know who u are..

i have something in my mind..
something that i want to pursue..
it's big, it's a dream..
at first i doubt it coz i don't know any other ppl who ever done it..
not someone that i know at least..

the best thing is, when i told the dream to a friend..
she supports me and gives opinions..
opens up my view.. shows me where to go..

that's one great thing to have a best fren like her..
thank you God for letting me have her as a fren..

i will pursue this.. i'm positive about it..
she has supported me since the first step..
if i persevere, she will gonna be part of it..
her name will be carved on it..
for eternity..

thank you girl.. u know who u are..

wif luv.

hari raya celebration 2009 - part 2

the second open house was on the 4th raya... main menu is nasi beriyani, daging n ayam panggang, ikan keli goreng dan yongtaufu...

~sosej n daging panggang~

~yongtaufu~

~ayam panggang~

~nasi beriyani~

~fruits as desserts~

~ni ayahtam; farira azizi sbg ketua chef grill~

~aku assistant je.. bahahaha~

~daging sdg dipanggang~

~ikan keli sdg digoreng~

~beli dah siap goreng, dak cacat ni sebok meratah.. sengal~

~kuah yongtaufu in the making~

~ketua chef; mak with assistant; nurul si cacat~

~ketua waiter cum penyambut tetamu; abah~

~teknikal team; along n ihsan tgh set up PA system~

~ni maksu sy; umi salmah.. baru blk dr umah mentua kt sabak bernam~

~ni paksu sy; khusyairi~

~k.. jom mkn jom!!~

~alamak terpejam mata lak.. lg skali ye~

~ok.. hi, nama sy mohd khalif muzaffar~

~ni kasut raya sy.. cantekk x?~

~k tu je.. sy nk check-it-out mknan.. bye!!~

~hi, nama sy megat mohd aiman.. pggl je aiman~

~cane sy dpt rambut ni? sy g salon.. free je.. kat dlm perut mak sy.. pegi sekali je pastu x g dah~

~alaaa.. xyah puji sy lbey2.. sy malu laa.. hikhikhik (gatal dak nih.. pantang nmpk pmpuan)~

open house ditutup kol 1pg.. open house yg 1st tutup kol 12tghmlm.. mau x pengsan!!

hari raya celebration 2009 - part 1

the 1st open house was on the second day of raya... main menu of the day was mee rebus (ni tradition at my house for years already)...

~buffet mee rebus.. ready to be served~

~menu lain; lemang, rendang, dodol, kuih dan kek~

~penuh umah~

~ni opah sy; puteri enson~

~ni wancik sy yg dok klang tu; noor akma (org srh sym dia wat muka lak)~

~ni makteh sy; noorizan (suka bergaya ala2 datin dia nih)~

~ni along sy; farira othman hafaz (tu la mak, org dah srh dok diam xmo)~

~ni sepupu2 sy.. dr kiri; megat mohd aiman, megat mohd hakim, mohd shafik dan nadirah akilah~